So today’s post is basically what the title says. An update on why I haven’t been active on here alot or anywhere really.
Where to begin…in a nutshell really I lost all motivation. A lot of this was probably down to the fact that I didn’t have a job and I was desperate to get one.
As some of you would know looking for a new job can be soul draining, it can be dissapointing and worst of all it can damage your confidence, this is basically what I’ve been dealing with. I have been applying for so many jobs, most of the time not even hearing back from them and then when I did hear back it was the normal email of ‘Unfortunatley at this time you have not been successful’ blah blah blah. See when you get this email a hundred things fly through your head, ‘am I too old for it’ ‘do they hate the fact that I’ve got kids’ and the ultimate ‘why don’t they just give me a chance’. I began to get really frustrated. To the point where I was back to thinking, ergh why am I so bad at everything and trust me when you feel this way it begins to effect everything; my socialising with friends, blogging…just my motivation in general!
But then I started getting interviews, great right? Wrong! Every interview I went to I was confident, happy, positive; all the things you should be at an interview. That is until you hear nothing back after it with no feedback whatsoever and once more you’re into that pit that you just don’t want to come out from. That pit where you can sulk to yourself and mull over why you’re so useless to everyone. I needed something to happen, something to pick me up and get me back on the right path because I for sure didn’t like the path where I was headed. That path would of resulted in me giving up and staying in my pit.
But then came Wednesday.
Another day, another interview. So I got out of that pit mindset, put my makeup on and my one of many interview outfits. The interview itself went as well as all the others. They don’t tend to give alot away. 5pm that day I get a call, they want me in for a 2nd interview. My mood sparked, just from one phone call I had gone from being this foul hormone infested monster to a woman who had a little hope now. That phone call instantly said to me ‘they are intrested in you’ and that was all I needed. Fast forward to yesterday and I go to the 2nd interview, exactly the same as Wednesday’s except for different questions. I left there feeling pretty good about myself and promised myself that I didn’t want to go into that pit again. Then 5pm rolls around again….
I GOT THE JOB!!!
They offered me the job and honestly I was so happy that I danced around the flat and I celebrated in true Claire fashion…I ordered pizza!!!
This is what I needed. This boost that a company believed in me and saw potential and that I was wanted. Instantly the motivation came back and here I am blogging again!!
I need to say Thank you to everyone on Twitter and on Facebook for all their messages congratulating me. Honestly you have no idea how much it means to have so so many great people in my life and you all made a good day even better.
Here’s to my motivation carrying on well into the future, the future is looking bright right now!